N Between the Lines

N Between the lines, is where I pen my fears and frustrations.
Its where I have a meeting of the mind, and carryout mental liberation.
N between the lines, is where my Goddesse and God, summons my soul.
And as I Write here, in between the lines, I surrender control.
N between the lines, is where I spy on the world, and learn the wisdom of the Ancients.
Learning that I to, am one with the Universe, and just as sacred.
N between the lines, is where I read of past memories,
and no matter how much I try to erase the pain, lessons for life, wont set me free.
Escaping, n between the lines, into the space of spaces, is where I can trace lightyears of
truth, written on my ancestors faces.
N between the lines is where you will read of me, of how this person developing into a spiritual being
wanted only to dance with the stars, and listen to the laughter of the trees.
N between the lines, there are my dreams that dream,
that you to can read N between the lines and believe.

Fruits of My Labor

planted the seed, tilled the land
now im holding, the fruits of my labor, in my hand
worked two damn jobs, just to put a roof over my head
back and feet hurt so much, from standing, i wanted to be dead
keep going was a little voice, singing in my mind
while listening to the background yell out, its gonna take some time
lawd have mercy on my soul, sweet Jesus help me reach my goal
saving all money, acting all funny, when people wanted my ends
no time for going out, it was more like see u latter my freind
i got a job to do, damn had I had two, only wanted to work one
there wasnt a second for fun,
Cause I was planting seeds and tilling the land
so i could hold on to the fruits of my labor,
and maybe serve dinner at my table
one day, in my house
that i held the deed too, and ofcourse with my name on it
a brick porch front house, is what i evisioned
but the banks said my fico score and credit history would make that descision
and years of employment at the same job with a decesnt salary
there wasnt a easy way to cut through all the formalities
nothing in life is easy, if you want it, you gotta work, you gots to bust your ass
you gotta plant some seeds, till the land
so you can hold on, to the fruits of your labor, in your hand.
it took me a year to accomplish the unthinkable
sacrificed me so I could be free, became more conceviable
10/20/2009 was the closing date, I received keys that opened doors to my fate.
It was all worth it, I would do it all over again, just to prove to my self.
If I plant some seeds and then till the land.
I can hold on to, the fruits of my labor, in my hand.
Amen-Ra

Twisted Heart Strings

I wrapped my self in your love,
yet, u disregaurd us, as if we never were.
Leaving me here with the blues.
No clues, of how we arrived here.
Your gone, and now Im left in fear.
Wipping tears, away with memories thats engraved in me.
My heart you have, please give me FREE.
You cant see, cause if you had eyes.
You would pull them out and look at all my pain,
then yourself, you would despise.
I love you with the depths of my very being.
How can you let go, and keep disbeliving, in we.
Maybe, you always wanted to be FREE, without me.
I've traveled to that far off place, called insanity.
Got lost along the way, cause I was trying to find the Goddesse in me.
So I could travel back to that familiar place called sanity.
So I could start back beliving that without you, I would still have me.
I dont wanna lose me trying to keep you.
I dont wanna lose you and still lose me.
So what the forever in a day do I do with blues and no clues and this scar across my heart.
How do I heal, and still not feel pain when the thought of you rains down on me, on me, down on me.
BABY, BABY, BABY.. if I could rock you to a sweet melody, and slip you into accoma.
I would.
Drink myself silly and forget you ever exsisted.
Then maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't feel so bad.
Then maybe, I would feel better.
Amen

Truth

I heard silence was golden, so I stole it, to give me clarity.
Wanted to hear truth, in abstract purple and green frequencies.
Darling---Intergalactic Universal Balance is what I Need.
Knowing the truth, is as painful as getting a broken heart.
So therefore I choose for now, to cry, because time will mend and restart.
Tell me the truth, just let me hear it.
Don't sugar coat, what could be my savior and deliverance.
For so long lies has smiled in my face, but you can turn it around if
you just speak truth to power in its place.
Tell me the truth, Im begging you to.
Can you please understand that without it, my mind will wander,
with distorted conundrums, wondering if all that i was ever told could be undone.
Tell me the truth and not what you THINK I should hear.
I dont need your manipulation bending my ear.
Within me there shall be no fear, from truth.
You got this ish twisted if you, think you could lie to me.
My soldiers of love, got my back, posted up on my corners, ready to take a bullet for me.
Allowing me to breathe.
You aint got Ish on Me.
Now step to the rythm of truth.